Pretend
Pretend
It is so hard for me. Pretending is so painful, but I have no idea. I am afraid to tell my story to others, because this kind of love is destined not to be admitted by others, because we met each other in an online game which is called AOC. I prefer to hide my love in my heart.
I still remember when we first met in this game. At that time I did not know how to play this game and always brought trouble to my partners. So I always spent a lot of time to exercise and spent a lot of money to buy aoc gold. I was so weak that I was looking for someone to help me. Just at this time I met him. In fact I laughed at him when I saw him. He did not have good equipment and always talked a lot in our union, but he even asked me whether I would like to do tasks with him. I hesitated, but later agreed.
From that day we started our journey in AOC. With him this journey is really enjoyable. I always complained to him about my equipment. Although he did not like equipping himself, but he always bought some conan gold for me. This behavior made me moved. I did not care about age of conan gold, although they were very important, but what I value was that he really treated me well. Later I found that he was very excellent in playing this game. So every time when I met troubles, I would phone him and asked him to help me.
At that period of time he was busy with his work for whole day, but I always asked him to play with me until very late. He was still willing to help me. When I think of this, I will be regrettable.
In fact I should have known earlier that he must have a girlfriend in reality. Later she still entered into this game. I knew he did not belong to me, even in this game. Although he still bought cheap aoc gold for me, I could not persuade myself to be happy. Just as he told to his girlfriend, I was just his sister. I was depressed at that time. I was afraid to face him and I chose to escape. I almost have given up this game and did not buy aoc money. But I still could not give him up.
My friend told me that I should speak out my love, but can I do this now? I do not want to interrupt his quiet life. I have to pretend to be his sister or partner.
