Nobody knew my melancholy
Nobody knew my melancholy
How frustrated I was, when I received his phone this noon. I thought this weekend, he would come back and we spent the only day together. I was always waiting for him, however, when the weekend finally came, he just said he could not come back due to the busy work. I said nothing, now that it became the truth, whatever I said was just useless. I only knew this weekend, I had to spend the whole day by myself again. No anybody, but only myself; no anything, but only the virtual hero gold.
I felt helpless. However, it was the truth. Sometimes I felt lucky, because I met him, my lover. It was not easy to find a bosom friend who would accompany me for life. I thought he understood me. Sometimes even though I said nothing, he guessed my thought and anguish. To stay with him, I felt happy. Sometimes I truly wanted the time to stop, I hoped so much I could immerse myself in the happiness for a longer time. Why all the happiness and blissfulness was so short. If the real life was just as the world of hero online gold, how nice it would be. Then we could have more time to be together.
Sometimes I truly wanted to give up the love. It was painful to let myself bare the loneliness. If without him, I thought I would be happier and no so much anguish. It would be wonderful, because there was no need to think about anything in the life, and I could have a good time because of the magic hero online money. However, I loved him. It was pretty difficult to forget the love. Everything happened, I could not regard just as nothing happened. He and everything about him had imprinted themselves in my mind so deep.
The days without him, I always told myself I had to be strong. We should strive for our future. However, I was puzzled again. Sometimes, I was optimistic, but sometimes, I seemed to be in the dark for a long time, I could not wait for the coming of dawn. It was terrible. I missed him, but we should not be together. Until now, I suddenly found it was so difficult to love a person. If I was the character in the virtual world, I could not be so unhappy. I had countless hero money, and I could do anything I liked in terms of my own thoughts.
Truly, my mood was mixed. Maybe I was not eloquent, and I could not describe it with any words. What was actually a kind of life in the future? There nobody knew my melancholy in the rainy day.
