Cold-hearted
Cold-hearted
My grandmother went away the day before yesterday, from then to now, I have been thinking about everything happened between us. I did not know who is my grandmother when I was a little child, because she kept me from her in such a long distance. She never made a coat with her kal geons for me when I was a child no matter I wanted a coat made by her. She never tried to care about me, she never tried to treat me as her granddaughter. She always tried to ignore me. I still remembered that when I called her grandmother the first time. I thought if I called her, she would treat me better. But I was wrong absolutely. She never treated me as a child who needed the care from the adult.
Though I knew all things, I tried my best to treat her when she was alive, every time when I back home, I would took her some kal gold and some gifts. Only that time, she would look at me with a expression may be understood only between us. I did not know why you should treat me like that, I was a little child at that time, even a little strange kids could do better than you.
I did not know why I wrote this about her. Maybe because when she was gone away in this world, when I never have a chance to care about her with my kalonline Geons, I should find a pretext to forget her. My dear grandmother, no matter how I dislike you before, now all is over. I still wish you can be happy in your world.
I knew you prefer my brother. You always gave him everything bought by your kal online geons. So now, my brother was so heart-broken all because of your care in his childhood.
Yeah, I was totally jealous of him. Every child had the right to gain the love from their parents and relatives. Why should I lack this kind of care? I just needed a simple happiness which may just cost fewer kal online gold which could be gained successfully by the other children.
I did not tear up at the funeral. Others maybe wondered why I have not tore. They maybe though I was so cold-hearted. But if they knew what I had experienced in my childhood, they would know me.
